THE ONE I CAN'T HAVE

A lot of you might relate. 

Everyday I think of the happiest I have been today, and the reason remains unchanged- YOU. 

Every time I feel I have lived my life a little out of ordinary, I think of how you’re teaching me that. 

The madness, the first feeling of almost everything, the best way to rant about topics we don't even relate to, the things you say that make me laugh relentlessly, I don't even recollect how many times I have cried laughing on the floor.

You've become my support system, and you're staying like this backbone. You’re making me realise that I’m more than just a pretty face. Infact, I’m feeling as a pretty one for the first time because you made me see it through your eyes. Mirrors, as these poets refer to, your eyes, your words, reciprocated the same. 

A wide smile, that’s what I’ve earned when I hear your name. 

But then, deep inside, I know we can’t be together. We are perhaps just meant to be friends, I guess. As soon as I think of the time when we’ll have to spilt ways, I can already see myself breaking down behind that wide smile. That too like a waterfall not knowing when to stop falling. Like a tornado not believing that calm could be disastrous. I build myself again and I break myself into pieces just by that one name. 

You’re nothing but just a book I wouldn’t be able to complete reading. You’ll always be my most prized possession, just that, it won’t be mine. 

XOXO,

Sanch.